Thursday, March 5, 2009
I have been having a rough few days, in general nothing has gone my way. I have really let my state of mind set the mood for the entire family, even my children have been more grumpy. I was at a loss as to what I could do to make things better. I turned to my mom and my closest friend for advice, and although it was great advice and encouragement something still wasn't settled in my heart. Then this afternoon as I was driving home from the store a song by Third Day came on the radio and it helped me reset. The chorus says, 'give me a revelation, show me what to do, cause I've been trying to find my way, I haven't got a clue' I realized that I haven't gone to the Lord broken and open to His guidance in a VERY long time. I try to keep total control of my life and never lift my burdens up to Him. As I shed a tear at the steering wheel I felt a total calm come over me. I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. Don't you just love that feeling? I wish I could feel that way all day everyday, without it ever fading.