That Feeling...

This is the only way I know how to explain it...

You have been dreaming of your wedding day since you were a little girl, now the day is fast approaching. You try on what seems like a million dresses. You have almost lost hope when the sales lady brings in one of her favorites. Looking at it on the hanger you can tell it isn't really what you had in mind, but you decide to try it on to make her happy. You get help with the zipper and turn to look in the mirror... you begin to cry. This is the dress, you feel it. For the rest of the day you can't stop smiling. It is all finally real and you can picture the rest of your life with your soon to be hubby.

I got that feeling yesterday. Billie and I drove out to a new neighborhood we saw online to see what they had to offer. Matt's time is so limited I wanted to make sure it would be worth him making the trip out there. We went into 3 beautiful model homes, they were either way out of our price range or a little too close to our max for my comfort. The kids were getting tired and hungry but I wanted to look at the last models before heading home, so Billie stayed in the car. I looked at the two two-story homes first, which were amazing!!! They were my favorite so far. Then I decided to look at the one story, it was more towards the middle of our price range and figured it couldn't hurt. As soon as I walked in I got THAT feeling. I walked through the rooms and I could picture this house with our furniture, our pictures, most importantly our family. I probably would never have looked at it if it weren't so conveniently located next to the big houses. All I can think of is how perfect it would work for our family. It doesn't have all the formals and play rooms that I had in mind but to be on the realistic side, there is nothing I dislike more than cleaning... fewer rooms would probably be best for me. The way the neighborhood is set up, no one has a neighbor behind them. Every lot backs up to a lake or a park. There are probably only about 20 houses complete so far and 5 of them are owned by fellow "men in blue" (cops). Everyone we passed waved, lots of young couples with children riding bikes, walking and just hanging out outside talking to each other. I even saw a girl walking two dogs like Jessie. Matt is interested, he will go take a look at it on Friday, but him being the practical one wants to look at more options. I know that is the smart thing to do but in my heart I feel like we will come back to this house. For the time being I am praying that God will help me to really see the other houses. I want to make the right decision, even if it means not building this house. I just wonder if I will get this feeling again.